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like i care if i can never own a home
what's the point if i have to live in it alone
like i care about the mess i'd leave behind
i've been so fucking careful my whole life
just this one time i will leave
and not spend most of the night worrying
about how i am going to get home
just this one time i will be
someone you want to take out to things
and not who you take everything out on
like i care what other places i could go
i'm not even curious to know
like i'm scared about the likelihood of pain
pain has been like family to me
just this one time i will leave
and not spend all day at work wondering
if you will still be there when i get home
so just this one time can you please
act like you would run away with me
and not like i'm the thing you're running from?
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2. |
the world ends with you
03:45
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i know where the line is i know when the line's been crossed
i'll never cross this one at least that's what i always thought
i know it's a shitshow i know i should know better than this
but maybe it's not about what you do
maybe it's about
who you do it with
all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this
but it just keeps getting bigger
the farther away from it i get
all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this
maybe i failed to consider
there could ever be
so much
of it
i know where the line is i know who the enemies are
i'll do all the talking you just have to wait in the car
i know there's no future if we keep on living like this
but anywhere we're going
it can't be worse
than everywhere
we've been
all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this
but it just keeps getting bigger
the farther away from it i get
all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this
maybe i failed to consider
there could ever be
so much
of it
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3. |
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i used to think
i used to dream
that if you loved me
that's all i would need
i fought so hard
to make it true
to find a place
that i could share with you
but something's different
i know it's strange
but i've got this feeling
that i can't explain
like this is our last chance
like this is the last dance
we'll ever have
ooh
i never want to leave
when you're holding on
to me
i love the feeling when
it hits
ooh
i wish i could believe
all of the things you promise
me
i wish it could just
stay like
this
i used to think
i used to dream
that if you loved me
that's all i would need
i fought so hard
to stay true
to find a place
i could feel safe with you
but something's different
i know it's strange
but there's nothing about this
that i would change
if this was my last chance
if this is the last dance
we'll ever have
ooh
i never want to leave
when you're holding on
to me
i love the feeling when
it hits
ooh
i wish i could believe
all of the things you promise
me
i wish it could just
stay like
this
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4. |
sophie
04:27
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i had a dream that
one day i showed up
at where you work and i paid
all your student loans off
like it was nothing
oh
like it was nothing
i had a dream that
it was the morning
and you weren't just
waiting for your iphone to start
ringing
you were just sleeping
oh
like it was nothing
today somebody told me
they want the old me back
i know i know i know
somebody had to hold me back
today somebody told me
they want the old me back
i know i know i know
nobody who knows me
wants the old me
back
i had a dream that
i had commanded
the return of everything of yours
they'd taken
and people listened
oh
like it meant something
i had a dream that
i was fifteen, and
i could see everything that was about
to happen
and i could stop it
oh
like it was nothing
today somebody told me
they want the old me back
i know i know i know
somebody had to hold me back
today somebody told me
they want the old me back
i know i know i know
nobody who knows me
wants the old me
back
it's like i always told you
it's like i always said
you got your arms around it
that's how you know it's dead
it's like i always told you
it's like i always said
once you feel like it's starting
you're almost at the end
it's like i always told you
it's like i always said
you can't just choose what people
do and do not forget
it's like i always tell you
it's like i always say
baby i'll always love you
to your eternal shame
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5. |
negotiating with demons
03:46
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when there's a situation
they always wanna talk
to give some convoluted
reason why it was your fault
and then they take your silence
as a sign they're absolved
while you just sit there shaking
way too freaked out to respond
this is why i wanted out
this is a thing i have been carrying around
this is a mess no one else wanted to clean up
this is why i love you so much
you wonder if your weakness
somehow brought all this on
if hurting other people
is how you prove that you are strong
i read that fighting monsters
can turn you into one
your tactics start to look like
things your enemies have done
this is why i wanted out
this is a thing i have been carrying around
this is a mess no one else wanted to bring up
this is why i love you so much
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6. |
omertà
03:25
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doodly doodly doo
plinky pinky
bwaahhhhhh
cooooooooo
tinkly tink
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7. |
stop pretending
03:38
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tell me again what you hope to accomplish
because if i'm being honest i do not understand
tell me again how you're planning to beat them
by being as much like them as you possibly can
something you tossed out is everything i want
something you're dismissive of is the reason i wake up
you say "you can't be soft if you wanna be punk"
fine, cool, whatever
thanks for clearing that up
ugh
tell me again about how heavy the crown is
about the weight of the burden
of being white and male
tell me again what you told all the people
you've ever had underneath you
about how you meant well
something you tossed out is everything i want
something you're dismissive of is the reason i wake up
if people talk shit and say "you're not one of us"
i guess we can stop pretending now that i ever was
いい天気ですね?
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8. |
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your own house in the suburbs
a modest success
you have to take out your piercings before you go to work
but otherwise they're pretty cool about the way that you dress
the trees in the driveway
start to shed all their leaves
some people would say it's cuz they're dying but
to you it just seems like they're focused on the important things
i hate that you think you know me
just because you heard i used to get around
i never knew what i wanted then
so what makes you so sure that you do now?
i hate that you think you own me
just because you heard i used to get around
i never knew what i wanted then
so what makes you so sure that you do know?
you start to notice him fidget
he always comes to bed late
you tried to see what was keeping him once
but he's always so quick to close the page
you ask if he's checked the papers
he promises that he did
so why's he acting like the future you dreamed of
is a cage that he's now trapped in?
i hate that you think you know me
just because you heard i used to get around
i never knew what i wanted then
so what makes you so sure that you do now?
i hate that you think you own me
just because you heard i used to get around
i never knew what i wanted then
so what makes you so sure that you do know?
he's been gone since the weekend
he said he was going downtown
you know that you should be enraged
but instead of getting mad you just shut down
your hair's a disaster
the color's started to fade
and when you get to work, everyone remarks about
how beautiful you look today
the trees in the driveway
start to shed all their leaves
some people would say it's cuz they're dying but
to you it just seems like they're focused on the important things
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9. |
words with friends
03:31
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you ripped this dress the last time you pulled it off me
but that hasn't stopped me from wearing it out
sometimes people notice and say there's a problem
like i wouldn't know unless they pointed it out
the way they all talk about pain
like it's some kind of abstract thing
like it's an outfit you can change
at any time
the way they all talk about love
like it's a burden they've shrugged off
fuck that fuck them fuck you ugh
fuck my life
you don't wanna hear me say that i'll always be there
you won't even let me come inside of your house
sometimes people call me and ask what's the problem
as if it helps anything if i spell it out
the way they all just stare at me
when i try to talk about these things
that i have a heart at all strikes them as quaint
the things they all say about you
i'm sure that all of it is true
i think that i get off of work tonight at 8
so i guess i'll call you when i'm parked outside your place
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10. |
kairosis in real life
02:38
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doo do doo do
doo do doo do
doo do doo do
doo do doo do
tinkly tinkly tinkly
tinkle tinky tinkle tink
tink tink
tinkly tinkly tinkle
tinkly tinkle tinky tink
tink tink
coooooooooooo
woosh
bwaahhhhhhh
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11. |
on fraternity
03:46
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the way your heart speeds up when you notice someone walking behind you
well that's why
the way they're all watching for your guard to drop at the end of the night now
well that's why
it's like you have to wear black in places like this
in their opinion you were almost kind of asking for it
all along
who cares if it's right as long as it's fun
so if someone gets hurt and then the cops come then
no one talks
the way they act like even bringing it up means you're the one with a problem
well that's why
the way they say they can't just stop being friends with him because of what happened
well that's why
it's like you have to wear black in places like this
did you not see them roll their eyes every time we walked in
all along
who cares if it's right as long as it's punk
so if someone gets hurt and then the cops come then
no one talks
this is why i wanted out
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12. |
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i used to think
i used to dream
that if you loved me
that's all i would need
i fought so hard
to make it true
to find a place
that i could share with you
but something's different
i know it's strange
but i've got this feeling
that i can't explain
like this is our last chance
like this is the last dance
we'll ever have
ooh
i never want to leave
when you're holding on
to me
i love the feeling when
it hits
ooh
i wish i could believe
all of the things you promise
me
i wish it could just
stay like
this
i used to think
i used to dream
that if you loved me
that's all i would need
i fought so hard
to stay true
to find a place
i could feel safe with you
but something's different
i know it's strange
but there's nothing about this
that i would change
if this was my last chance
if this is the last dance
we'll ever have
ooh
i never want to leave
when you're holding on
to me
i love the feeling when
it hits
ooh
i wish i could believe
all of the things you promise
me
i wish it could just
stay like
this
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jaime brooks Portland, Oregon
a careless man's careful daughter
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