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magical pessimism 2014

by default genders

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Yikou
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Yikou whatever that electric fiddle beat is, i can't get enough of it. Favorite track: stop pretending.
Georgie
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Georgie it was ridiculously hard to pick a favourite track on this album, the case being that i love the entirety of it. the lyrics really struck a chord personally and are ridiculously clever, whilst the instrumental is super cool and abstract. i dont know how to talk about music really, but i wanted to leave a comment because this album helped me get through a lot of tough times. really, truly worth a shot. Favorite track: everything is a lie and everyone is completely full of shit.
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James Storey a beautifully rendered view into personal experience and emotion Favorite track: everything is a lie and everyone is completely full of shit.
Loose Morals Luvspugs
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Loose Morals Luvspugs perfect for walking alone to get some clarity. relatable, raw lyrics which reflect on specific emotional situations the artist has experienced. Favorite track: everything is a lie and everyone is completely full of shit.
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1.
like i care if i can never own a home what's the point if i have to live in it alone like i care about the mess i'd leave behind i've been so fucking careful my whole life just this one time i will leave and not spend most of the night worrying about how i am going to get home just this one time i will be someone you want to take out to things and not who you take everything out on like i care what other places i could go i'm not even curious to know like i'm scared about the likelihood of pain pain has been like family to me just this one time i will leave and not spend all day at work wondering if you will still be there when i get home so just this one time can you please act like you would run away with me and not like i'm the thing you're running from?
2.
i know where the line is i know when the line's been crossed i'll never cross this one at least that's what i always thought i know it's a shitshow i know i should know better than this but maybe it's not about what you do maybe it's about who you do it with all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this but it just keeps getting bigger the farther away from it i get all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this maybe i failed to consider there could ever be so much of it i know where the line is i know who the enemies are i'll do all the talking you just have to wait in the car i know there's no future if we keep on living like this but anywhere we're going it can't be worse than everywhere we've been all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this but it just keeps getting bigger the farther away from it i get all that i wanted was to get far away from all of this maybe i failed to consider there could ever be so much of it
3.
i used to think i used to dream that if you loved me that's all i would need i fought so hard to make it true to find a place that i could share with you but something's different i know it's strange but i've got this feeling that i can't explain like this is our last chance like this is the last dance we'll ever have ooh i never want to leave when you're holding on to me i love the feeling when it hits ooh i wish i could believe all of the things you promise me i wish it could just stay like this i used to think i used to dream that if you loved me that's all i would need i fought so hard to stay true to find a place i could feel safe with you but something's different i know it's strange but there's nothing about this that i would change if this was my last chance if this is the last dance we'll ever have ooh i never want to leave when you're holding on to me i love the feeling when it hits ooh i wish i could believe all of the things you promise me i wish it could just stay like this
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sophie 04:27
i had a dream that one day i showed up at where you work and i paid all your student loans off like it was nothing oh like it was nothing i had a dream that it was the morning and you weren't just waiting for your iphone to start ringing you were just sleeping oh like it was nothing today somebody told me they want the old me back i know i know i know somebody had to hold me back today somebody told me they want the old me back i know i know i know nobody who knows me wants the old me back i had a dream that i had commanded the return of everything of yours they'd taken and people listened oh like it meant something i had a dream that i was fifteen, and i could see everything that was about to happen and i could stop it oh like it was nothing today somebody told me they want the old me back i know i know i know somebody had to hold me back today somebody told me they want the old me back i know i know i know nobody who knows me wants the old me back it's like i always told you it's like i always said you got your arms around it that's how you know it's dead it's like i always told you it's like i always said once you feel like it's starting you're almost at the end it's like i always told you it's like i always said you can't just choose what people do and do not forget it's like i always tell you it's like i always say baby i'll always love you to your eternal shame
5.
when there's a situation they always wanna talk to give some convoluted reason why it was your fault and then they take your silence as a sign they're absolved while you just sit there shaking way too freaked out to respond this is why i wanted out this is a thing i have been carrying around this is a mess no one else wanted to clean up this is why i love you so much you wonder if your weakness somehow brought all this on if hurting other people is how you prove that you are strong i read that fighting monsters can turn you into one your tactics start to look like things your enemies have done this is why i wanted out this is a thing i have been carrying around this is a mess no one else wanted to bring up this is why i love you so much
6.
omertà 03:25
doodly doodly doo plinky pinky bwaahhhhhh cooooooooo tinkly tink
7.
tell me again what you hope to accomplish because if i'm being honest i do not understand tell me again how you're planning to beat them by being as much like them as you possibly can something you tossed out is everything i want something you're dismissive of is the reason i wake up you say "you can't be soft if you wanna be punk" fine, cool, whatever thanks for clearing that up ugh tell me again about how heavy the crown is about the weight of the burden of being white and male tell me again what you told all the people you've ever had underneath you about how you meant well something you tossed out is everything i want something you're dismissive of is the reason i wake up if people talk shit and say "you're not one of us" i guess we can stop pretending now that i ever was いい天気ですね?
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your own house in the suburbs a modest success you have to take out your piercings before you go to work but otherwise they're pretty cool about the way that you dress the trees in the driveway start to shed all their leaves some people would say it's cuz they're dying but to you it just seems like they're focused on the important things i hate that you think you know me just because you heard i used to get around i never knew what i wanted then so what makes you so sure that you do now? i hate that you think you own me just because you heard i used to get around i never knew what i wanted then so what makes you so sure that you do know? you start to notice him fidget he always comes to bed late you tried to see what was keeping him once but he's always so quick to close the page you ask if he's checked the papers he promises that he did so why's he acting like the future you dreamed of is a cage that he's now trapped in? i hate that you think you know me just because you heard i used to get around i never knew what i wanted then so what makes you so sure that you do now? i hate that you think you own me just because you heard i used to get around i never knew what i wanted then so what makes you so sure that you do know? he's been gone since the weekend he said he was going downtown you know that you should be enraged but instead of getting mad you just shut down your hair's a disaster the color's started to fade and when you get to work, everyone remarks about how beautiful you look today the trees in the driveway start to shed all their leaves some people would say it's cuz they're dying but to you it just seems like they're focused on the important things
9.
you ripped this dress the last time you pulled it off me but that hasn't stopped me from wearing it out sometimes people notice and say there's a problem like i wouldn't know unless they pointed it out the way they all talk about pain like it's some kind of abstract thing like it's an outfit you can change at any time the way they all talk about love like it's a burden they've shrugged off fuck that fuck them fuck you ugh fuck my life you don't wanna hear me say that i'll always be there you won't even let me come inside of your house sometimes people call me and ask what's the problem as if it helps anything if i spell it out the way they all just stare at me when i try to talk about these things that i have a heart at all strikes them as quaint the things they all say about you i'm sure that all of it is true i think that i get off of work tonight at 8 so i guess i'll call you when i'm parked outside your place
10.
doo do doo do doo do doo do doo do doo do doo do doo do tinkly tinkly tinkly tinkle tinky tinkle tink tink tink tinkly tinkly tinkle tinkly tinkle tinky tink tink tink coooooooooooo woosh bwaahhhhhhh
11.
the way your heart speeds up when you notice someone walking behind you well that's why the way they're all watching for your guard to drop at the end of the night now well that's why it's like you have to wear black in places like this in their opinion you were almost kind of asking for it all along who cares if it's right as long as it's fun so if someone gets hurt and then the cops come then no one talks the way they act like even bringing it up means you're the one with a problem well that's why the way they say they can't just stop being friends with him because of what happened well that's why it's like you have to wear black in places like this did you not see them roll their eyes every time we walked in all along who cares if it's right as long as it's punk so if someone gets hurt and then the cops come then no one talks this is why i wanted out
12.
i used to think i used to dream that if you loved me that's all i would need i fought so hard to make it true to find a place that i could share with you but something's different i know it's strange but i've got this feeling that i can't explain like this is our last chance like this is the last dance we'll ever have ooh i never want to leave when you're holding on to me i love the feeling when it hits ooh i wish i could believe all of the things you promise me i wish it could just stay like this i used to think i used to dream that if you loved me that's all i would need i fought so hard to stay true to find a place i could feel safe with you but something's different i know it's strange but there's nothing about this that i would change if this was my last chance if this is the last dance we'll ever have ooh i never want to leave when you're holding on to me i love the feeling when it hits ooh i wish i could believe all of the things you promise me i wish it could just stay like this

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released July 14, 2014

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